Random doses of Eryn

Why do I never feel well anymore?

Oh well 

I just ate dinner, and now I’m hungry again…wtf?

harry potter and the order of the phoenix FINALLY comes out on dvd this week.  I have yet to see it.  I’m happy that I’ll get too.

 Yet…..I don’t know if I’ll buy it or not.  Weird, I know.

uh oh

the credit card that i desperately need to use is, well, missing.  i can’t find it ANYWHERE!  crap

taken from my xanga…

My friend, the lovely Miss Hannah, recently posted a blog about happiness coming in the midst of such trial (speaking specifically about finances) and I have also been thinking about that as of late.  I know that I spend a lot of time on xanga saying, “life sucks” which frankly, it often does.  But I would like to clarify that I don’t hate it, really.  I mean, I wouldn’t necessarily CHOOSE to be in the situations I’m in.  Well, I sort of did choose it, but you know what I mean.  I wouldn’t always choose the hardest way.  I really would like to have a day, maybe a week, dare I say a month where I don’t have to worry about money, the apartment, jobs, my roommate, friends, my family, my health, etc…of course, that will never happen for any of us.

The point, and I do have one, is that the fact that ALL of these things plague me daily may be hard, it may be awful, it may cause more tears than I’ll ever admit, but such is the life of a 22 year old.  Pretty much everyone reading this is around my age and everyone knows and empathizes with everything I’m writing.  And most people older than us have been here.  And often, people say that this was the greatest time in their lives.  And I really would have to agree.  Because for once, things are always being handed to us.  Problems don’t have a quick fix. 

We are learning the value of things, the value of ourselves.  We can fully appreciate a free cup of coffee from a friend, because sometimes, that is the only coffee we can get.  We appreciate the use of someone’s washer/dryer because we don’t have money for the laundromat.  Someone offers for you to stay he night, and you are overjoyed because once again, your heater has broken and maintenance is too busy to fix it.

I am miserable, and I love every minute of it.  Because I believe that one day, when I don’t have many of these struggles, I won’t remember the pain of today, but instead the love that surrounded me.  And who couldn’t be overjoyed when feeling such things…

To those of you who are in a place to help others in different ways, thank you.  To those of you in need, I hope that one day, in one way, I can help you…

In closing, I’ll say this:  Sometimes in life, we think the problems of today are too large to overcome.  And then tomorrow comes, and those problems of the day before don’t seem as large.  But, of course, that’s just because today has stack new problems on top!    okay, so that wasn’t really uplifting, but i still think it was cute.  and a good way to look at things.  Enjoy your problems while you can, because tomorrow you’ll have so many more that you can’t enjoy the old ones as much.  Or something like that.

Love to all.

Oops!

And then two things that I DID NOT see coming happened…

And my careful planning was no longer so careful…

And I didn’t know what to do…

And the panic began to set in…

Crap.

I’m practically dating Tim Tang.

 Ha

so last night, my friend from Houston drunk dialed me and it was hilarious.  He kept threatening to use various forms of martial arts on guys that treat me bad.  I loved it.

love.

that is all

the gum i’m chewing is giving me a tummy ache

spending the next two days with a friend’s family to celebrate the bird day!

sometimes, I can’t decide if I am brave or cowardly….now is one of those times…

Is it possible to view your cowardess as bravery?